what's my age again?

i'm_only_daydreaming.mp3 - dios (malos)

tomorrow is my birthday. it's always a weird time, birthday time. it hasn't always been. my mom passed away 5 days after my birthday 5 years ago. so now this time, this season, this month, this week - it reminds me of that time.

i remember on the way home from the hospital that day, my brother and my dad and i were driving home. silently. i remember thinking how strange it was, that you had to drive home from something like that. that you had to get in a car. stop at stop signs. follow driving rules. and drive home, like it was a normal day or something. it was raining that day. the radio was on in my brother's car. i remember thinking i wanted to hear a song that would fit the feelings that were just hanging in the air at that moment. something like that dios (malos) song up there. something that felt like the slow motion mode i was in. and then blink 182's "what's my age again?" came on...and for a brief moment i got to think about something else, and i thought, "dammit, this is the song that i'm going to remember for this moment!"

2 years ago i wrote this thing which started off being about that time, but ended up being about where i wanted to be in life. so, on an optimistic note, i've taken a few steps closer to where i want to be since i wrote that. a few. you can read it here.

Comments

[Aaron]

Happy Birthday Jen girl!
you have a good heart and that shall lead you to the beautiful places in which you deserve to be.
have a wonderful birthday!
love
me:")

[Alex Blagg]

Happy (late) Birthday, Jen!

(I'm also loving Dios right now)